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Chapter 27: Removing the Veil: A Collective Version of Self-Love and Unknown Futures

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"Lift the veil that obscures the heart and there you will find what you are looking for." - Kabir For the last several weeks I've been dealing with the grief of my vision board and everything it symbolized. For me it was grieving the loss of a life I'll never get to experience; a life that validated and rewarded all of the trials, birthing pains, and rebirths I experienced within this lifetime. It validated the decision to keep trying because there was sunshine on the other side of depression and suicide. It was the manifestation of self-love that I had constructed that identified and honored the coping mechanisms and survival tools I created as a result of a lifetime of rejection, abandonment, and feeling unworthy. When I discarded my vision board I severed the delicate bungee cord that allowed me to stare into the abyss and be roped back into the realm of the living. I spent the next week in a virtual free fall and returning to old fears and anxieties: that nothing ...