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Mental Alcoholism: A Lifelong Battle With Depression

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  *Let me preface this by saying that I have not been clinically diagnosed with depression nor am I on anti-depressants. Though I am strongly considering it and will most likely seek either therapy and/or medication at some point in 2022* I have been living with depression for most of my adult life. I think many of us have the misconception that depression are intense feelings of sadness, like when people say "i'm so depressed..." staying home, watching TV, eating ice cream out of the carton, and wallowing in self-pity.  I can't speak for anyone else, but for me depression looks like going through days, weeks, and months in a perpetual haze, like a giant fog that you can't see through. It looks like showing up for work everyday and going through the motions and hoping no one criticizes or even worse, compliments me in my work. It looks like scrolling through social media for puppy videos and memes, for those little shots of dopamine to get me through the next hour